First off, I don't really know what I'm going to blog about. I'm just gonna keep on writing, blabbing off here and there until something interesting pops into my head. After all, this blog is about my thoughts!
Well, today, I visited my cousin. When I got home, my aunt asked if I wanted to eat since my cousin was about to eat. I politely said "Yes" and sat down at the table. After my cousin and I finished eating, he began talking to my aunt about my deceased grandmother. They both had a rather touching and lengthy conversation, reminiscing of all the good times they had with her and how my grandmother would always make freshly baked sweet bread whenever they would go to Mexico. Yup, the TWO had a good time talking about THEIR memories. I mean, it wasn't like they purposely tried to ignore me or not include me in the conversation, but, the truth is, I never really knew my grandparents.
The only time I was able to see them was when my family took a trip to Mexico when I was in first grade. I was 7 at the time. The only thing I remember of my grandparents was that my grandma made really good empanadas and my grandpa had a gun hidden somewhere in the house. And only three years after I had just met my grandparents and wanted to know more about them, they passed away. Both in the same year. I don't think I cried because they passed away, but because of what could have been. To me, my grandparents were stranger. Prior to the trip to Mexico, they were only people I would talk to on the phone, and if it were not for my mother telling me that they were my grandparents, I could have guessed they were just some people. I desperately wanted to know more about them and become closer to them after the trip to Mexico because I was jealous of my other friends who had knew their grandparents and visited them every week. I wanted that, that which I never had and never will.
But, we carry on wayward, regardless of what happens. We as human beings are able to find solutions to every problem, whether we solve it, go around it, or just ignore it.
Time to go study for finals. Good night.
